Sunday Sundries: Weekly Retrospective

Hi All:

So this week was the last week of instruction at Cal.  I did not give that fact much thought as aI lived day-to-day.  I had a lot of assignments and write-ups due Thursday and Friday.

This Past Monday was also my last Business Meeting as an Active Member of my sorority.  I’m ready to move on.  Installs are next week and I’m FREE.  My tenure as Secretary was worthwhile.

Mmm, Wednesday and Thursday were hard for me because I experienced the incredible loss of a valued friendship.  My friend expressed their apathetic sentiment toward me.  Oddly enough, he prefaced it with “I don’t want to be rude, but…”  Ha.  It took me about a day and a half to re-gain my bearings.  This was compounded by the feeling that I’d been similarly abandoned by my close female friends.  I really had no one to talk to.

See, I may be a very rational, straight-forward person, but I absolutely need friends.  My ideas and feelings cannot exist in a vacuum.  I need friends to balance me- especially when I am thinking about social justice and fighting ideological wars in academia.  I need them to buffer my rough edges, and I hope that I complement my friends…

BUT, in this instance, I felt abandoned, betrayed, angry and hurt.

By Thursday night, I opened the Bible, meditated on the Word, listened to music and wrote out my thoughts in my [little-used] journal.  Now I have peace of mind and contentment.  It’s amazing how that works.

I felt like I was mourning, but now I’ve come to a place where, while it may still hurt, it does not define how I feel.  Life moves on.

So I’ve moved on.

“Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

-Psalm 46:10

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